It’s been a while. I honestly didn’t know how or what to say for a long time. For now I think I’m just going to put down some basics of what’s been going on with me.
I’ve been busy. Very, very busy. I’ve been keeping mom entertained as best I can in between trips to the doctor with Ben and getting ready to start back to school. We made a visit to the electro-physiologist last week as well as a trip to the pediatrician and regular cardiologist. Basically what we found out is that Ben is an enigma of sorts. His heart condition, WPW, is under control BUT his heart medication that keeps that condition under control is wreaking havoc on his somewhat advanced asthma. (Yes, at 8 months Ben has asthma, despite everyone saying babies can’t have it – he has it.) Now here comes the tricky part – to change his medicine or not to change it. If we keep it the same he will continue to wheeze, constantly. If we change it we don’t know if the new meds will control his heart condition or if they might have other side effects, and some of them really really BAD side effects. For right now we have decided to wait. He compensates very well with the wheezing. He also hasn’t had a heart episode in 2 months. If either of those things changes then we will be looking into some very difficult choices but for now we wait.
Back to school – I have returned to work after 8 months off with Ben and Evey. We started back on the 15th with back to school meetings. Tomorrow we have 7th grade orientation day and Wednesday all the kiddos come back. It’s been like putting on an old well worn pair of jeans. I don’t think I knew how much I missed it until I started back. Staying home has so much appeal to me but I never knew that part of me was missing until I got back to my classroom and started planning lessons and decorating and visiting with old and dear friends and even made a couple of new ones. I am admittedly, more than a little nervous and scared as to how this year will go. How will Ben do at daycare? How will his daycare provider react if he gets sick? What will his health be like, will he get RSV again? And a million more questions run threw my head everyday. What a difference a year makes! At this time last year I was thinking I had it made in the shade – pregnant, a student teacher scheduled and 6-8 weeks of maternity leave after that. The best laid plans…